Can I pause time....please?

Remember when you were little and all you could think about was growing up. Every sentence started with "When I'm older..." and usually ended with something super cool and exciting. How come when you are young you can't wait to be old, but when you are old you just want to be young again?

I'm feeling a little bit of both right now!

A few months ago I was saying to myself "If I can just make it 3 more months and I'll be in Jerusalem"....well 3 months later I'm wanting to go back. These past 3 months have gone by so fast. Jerusalem seemed so far away it didn't even seem real. Well here I am, 3 weeks left in school and 4 weeks left in the United States. Where did the time go?

I wasn't really sad about leaving until about two weeks ago....when life became perfect. My life for the past couple of weeks has been great. I've laughed more, prayed more, studied more and played more! It seems as if everything is going perfect. Maybe this is a little trick time is trying to play on me...make sure everything is going great and than change it all up to see how Sydney reacts!

With finals coming up I find myself just trying to "make it through" the next 3 weeks. But looking back and seeing how fast time really goes I want to change my attitude. I want to enjoy every miserable second of the final weeks of school. Because, sadly with school ending so soon and me leaving for Jerusalem right after, I only have about 3 weeks left with some of my friends here. Its hard to imagine that when I come back to Provo....just 5 months from now, my life will be completely different. Many of my friends are graduating and moving on to the "Big world"! How I wish I could be moving on with them....or even better having them stay with me here! I guess this is just one life lesson that I have to learn....sometimes its just time to move on with life! I can't stay little forever!

So for the next 4 weeks before I peace out and become "independent" or something like that, I am going to enjoy every second of life. My life here is so great! Happiness seems to be around every corner! I know that this summer is going to be full of grand stories and adventures but I want to enjoy the adventure I'm living right now!

I may never be able to pause time but at least I can enjoy what I have been given!

Love to all!