so today i felt like being honest. growing up is hard sometimes. i've always had a plan. a direction to go. for me it was go to school, go to more school, and maybe even more school, get married, have a family, live happily ever after. you don't really think about what happens after school. or after you reach your goal. when life is stagnant.
so i graduated last year. i was sad about not going to school but it was okay because i just started working a great job. but here i am this year. i am still working a great job (which i love) but here is the deal...i do work my dream job but now i'm working from home. i don't get out much (though i'm trying to be better at this), i wake up each day, work, eat, hang out with spence for a bit and go to bed. that's it. each and every day. i'm not really working towards anything anymore. i'm not going back to school like lots of my friends. i'm not preparing for graduate school like so many around me. i'm not preparing for a baby or "nesting" like many of my friends. i'm simply doing this. working each and everyday.
though i am very grateful for my job. i get to work from chicago. keep doing what i love for an incredible company. i get to help the hurt of student loans. support my husband. i really am grateful for that. but i can't fight this feeling of not progressing. i've overcome my big goals. graduate...check. find a job...check. move to chicago...check. now what?
has anyone else struggled with feelings like this? i need your advice and suggestions. i think i need a hobby. or something to help myself grow. i need some motivation in my life. but i'm struggling to find it. please tell me i'm not alone.
it may sound funny but i know there is happiness in day to day life. just because we aren't having a baby, or buying a house, or having awesome adventures we can be happy. i know that. but sometimes the day to day life is the hardest. it's stagnant.
